Just a few short weeks ago, I laid out the plan for this year:
- Focus FIRST on getting more of the kind of work that I really want to keep doing.
- Expect hope instead of horror with this next move.
- GAIN health in the coming transitions.
- Shape my life so that one year from today my own life is more abundant and I’m more of a catalyst for others’ abundance too.
And so far?
Number 1, a little intimidating, but giving it a decent run.
The lack of immediate ‘security’ is nowhere even remotely near my comfort zone, but I’ve been able to stay the course. I’m learning a lot, and though I still don’t know what the outcome will be, I’m doing the work!
I’ve gotten through the career coaching. And numerous training courses. I’ve learned more about small businesses, and resources for them, than I previously even imagined there was to learn. I’ve chopped down my budget and spruced up my resume. My head spins with the skill-related knowledge I’m brushing up on.
I’ve even found some options for jobs that fit within my goal!
Number 3, I haven’t been doing too badly on either.
As mentioned, transitions are NOT my happy place, but I’ve managed to keep up on a workout routine that is at least holding me together, and I’ve (mostly) managed to stick to it even when deadlines loom.
Chronic Pain: Not as bad as it could be, and even improving some.
Mental Health: Not where I want it to be, for sure, but it could be, and trust me, it has been, far worse!
Faith: Holding up decently, and 10,000 times better than in the midst of the life wreck.
Number 4, of course, is a longer term outcome.
But even here, I feel that all the things I’m learning, and the progress I’m making ought surely to be of use to someone else down the line. And some days I even remember what it’s like to have the energy to contribute!
Which leaves us with:
Expect hope instead of horror with this next move.
You’d think with the improved faith, decent mental and tolerable physical health, nearly a year of warning, and even the courage to try something as radical as working for myself, this one would be much easier by now, wouldn’t you?
Not so much.
Apparently the power of Horrible Move PTSD transcends well-rounded progress across the rest of life.
Once again, my landlords are preparing to sell the house I live in.
This time it’s for sure.
This time, it’s time to move out, and on. Forward.
Which is nearly paralysing.
Strange how you can have so much horror about leaving a place you never wanted to be!
Because it isn’t that I like where I live now, or that it’s a good fit. It is that this is a known evil.
It’s that my BETTER, BIGGER, HEALTHIER faith still isn’t perfect faith, or anywhere near.
So it’s still hard to expect hope instead of horror.
But, as with the other three, if I’m going to accomplish this one, well, I just have to do it. I have to move forward, even if that means inching forward. Because paralysed isn’t one of the options.
So, what abundance lessons have I learned that I can apply NOW?
- FAITH expects the good. It’s not just about maintaining an obstinate belief throughout the misery.
- I’ve seen many blessings in these past storms, so there are probably further blessings in this future.
- Optimism, joy, and positive hopes, these are what build up a healthy enough brain and body to make surviving the tough times possible.
- There are far more resources than you’d ever expect. If it’s true for business, for learning, it’s probably true for the rest of life too.
Not a bad start.
Will that carry me through without a qualm? Probably NOT! 🙂
But if it at least carries me through despite the qualms, it’s a good start.